Dear Lover,
This is my first attempt at putting you into words. Forgive me if it is not emotional enough, not lyrical enough, not poetry enough- for you love all I write yet all I write is never you enough.
It never will be.
Nothing ever will be.
Maybe the poets of history were all lost travellers, trying to write their way home and never realising every stroke of their pen would just take them a mile farther, for this love led them to verse, just like it brought me here, and this love ridiculed the insufficiency of their minds, just as it stands here and laughs at mine.
What can I do, my love? You are made of more than these symbols they have named the alphabet, hand crafted of more than just skin, bones and your beautiful soul.
You have been made of laughter and twinkling eyes, of hope, of feathers, of dusty pages and assurances everything will be fine.
You have been made of libraries, of superhero movies and children’s smiles, of coffee, of chocolate, and shining lights.
You have been made of music, my love, each corner of you a different note, each mood another melody- and when I hold your hand, try to hum along, I look at you and realise you are a song.
For you are more than these symbols they have named the alphabet.
You are a spell, an enchantment, and every time you say another stupid thing, every time you make another stupid joke, every time you tell me you’re the best and secretly doubt yourself inside, that’s every time the word ‘magic’ comes to mind.
I do not know, my love, if you requite me, if you reciprocate, but as the question mark disappears somewhere in a blob that’s heart shaped, I realise-
I do not care.
I do not care in the least for you’re my best friend, and that’s what matters, you’re going to stick by till the end, and that’s what matters.
My love, we spent an entire evening once, just talking of chocolate and making funny faces, and though someday I hope you will take me in your arms and though someday I hope the world will be ours, nothing will be as beautiful as those few shared laughs, nothing will be more delicious than those chocolate bars.
I do not know where we are going, my dear, do not know where we will end up, but it is a promise I make to you, a promise of forever- not of friendship, not of care, not of love or of loyalty- it is a promise of memory.
I do not know where we are going, my dear, I do not know where we will end up, but once upon a time we had it all and once upon a time we were whole, once upon a time we redefined loyalty, once upon a time we built our own eternity, and this is a promise of forever- they may all forget, but I will
always,
always,
always
remember.
Yours,
Until the very end,
Hima.